Transformation

I'm making big changes in my life that can help me get by as an adult... First off dealing with Bipolar Type 2, Anxiety, & Depression isn't the easiest no diagnosis really is honestly. Sadly regular jobs just don't work for me I've tried I'm a good worker I follow rules but than Anxiety attacks and I end up "failing" in my mind when nothing has even happened. Making a big changes is scary I hate it I get freaked out but it needs to be done! Job wise I'm taking on the internet YouTube! I usually over think than take down my videos... NOT this time. Along with blogging i overthink than hate it... NOT ANYMORE. I need to just do it and have fun with it express myself. Along with a job I need to kick my depressions a** it's taking me away from my child... Negative thoughts and energy about myself I don't want near her so I stay away depressed crying in my room. Now how on earth can I get this all done if I let this crap get to me... Medications are coming well new ones trying something different to help me succeed at my Dreams being an Influencer & Mental Health Advocate would be amazing... I just want to help people... BUT I need to help myself first. Losing weight and exercise... I busted my knee so I need to figure that out first... I love healthy food & working out so that's not a problem its I get in my own head and I tell myself I failed when I haven't even started. So kicking the nay saying thoughts aside I CAN DO THIS. I also want to take my little one on hikes and camping plus the beach with my amazing Boyfriend... I can't do that if I'm in a rut feeling horrible I do not want to go anywhere when I feel this way. I refuse to let my Mental Illness Kill me or ruin my relationships... I have so much good going on I just gotta stand up and go for it!

Which I am this Queen needs a Glow Up... Lose weight, Grow out hair, Learn skin care & how to do nice makeup, new wardrobe, New Attitude, New View on life. New ME.

I just need to always remember to believe in myself.

I got this.

Thank you for reading

Have a wonderful Night/Day

- Sarah